Gatekeepers And Following Your Own Truth

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I MET MY HUSBAND ON MYSPACE

   I wanted to write about why I think online dating can be a good idea and how meeting someone before you see them face to face can be good, depending upon the motivation and desires of an individual who is seeking to find someone online then it can turn out quite well, if men or women are looking to just have sex or get money and a good meal etc. then this is not for you, but if you truly are looking to find your soul mate, partner and be in a good serious long lasting relationship then this is for you. 

   This was about 5 years ago when I met my husband on Myspace when Myspace was the older version and at the beginning of the Facebook craze, now I consider Facebook like Myspace and that it too can be a great way to meet people and really get to know them, what I liked about Myspace was that on a persons main page about themselves that you could give a description about yourself and what your all about, so that you got a good idea about them similar to dating sites, also similar to dating sites you would be able to look up people in your area unlike Facebook, what I like about Facebook is that you can get to know them by what they post on their timeline and that they still have an about me section. So when I was looking to add friends to Myspace I came across my husbands about me section and what drew me to him was how different and interesting he made himself sound, he had very interesting likes and dreams that I was very interested in, which made me be interested in sending him a letter to let him know how interesting and different he sounded and that I would like to be friends, so from there we wrote back and forth a few times then exchanged e-mails and started writing back and forth for about a month before exchanging phone numbers, now during the time of writing back and forth I asked a lot of questions about him and him about me as well, so before even talking on the phone we got to know each other really well, we ended up talking on the phone for about 3 months until we finally met face to face, during us talking on the phone it really opened us up to each others personality and we got to know each other a lot better in a way that you cannot get to know each other just through e-mail alone, during that time on the phone we still asked lots of questions, needless to say we got married about 6 months after first meeting on Myspace, now if you know me I do not get married right away to anyone, in fact I have been known to be with a guy for 8 years and never marring, one guy I was with for 2 and one guy I was with for 6 years and never got married, two of the men wanted to marry me so lets just say that I do not just jump into marriage right away, the reason why I was able to marry him so fast was because we got to know each other so well and know each others core values so well that it made me feel comfortable to marry him, I even will say that he is my soul mate because I did not think that I would find someone so compatible with me.

   So the point here is to ask lots of questions and to ask the right questions at that, I like to ask a guy what they are looking for in a woman and if a guy says personality and someone to have fun with then not always but most of the time it could mean that they are not ready to settle down and may never settle down so I proceed with caution on that one, but I ask lots of questions like what there hobbies and interests are for a base in order to find things that we have in common, then I ask if they have brothers and sisters and if they are close to them in order to talk about deeper things like how well they deal with them which can give you a good idea on how they handle not so well situations, because you will be running into that eventually so I like to be prepared, because I believe you have to treat everyone differently depending upon their personality and how they process things, in some cases that alone might be a reason why or why not you guys are compatible, I like to take day by day and not judge right away just to see what goes on on the ins and outs of their daily lives and for me I was looking for someone that was open which is what my husband was and that really sold me on him, we would talk about people he encountered during some days, we talked about things he learned maybe that day, and that really gave me a good idea about what life on a daily basis would be like with him, still to this day we talk about everything from tv shows to all sorts of his interests, even if I am not interested in something he is talking about I try to listen just in case I might learn something from it, and that’s what makes relationships so great if you can help each other grow and learn or be inspiring for them in some way. Anyway there is lots to tell about this subject but I will make it short, and that is to keep your eyes open to meeting people in ways that you never thought that you could, or that go against what other people say as not being a good idea, there was a time when we were even embarrassed of how we met because peoples image was that of this not being a serious relationship that will not last, but I could not be so happy and I still think I am the happiest girl alive to have met him, so keep your head up, heart open and follow it, go after what you want.

A MESSAGE TO ALL STARSEED CHILDREN

Hello Starseed Children,

Their has always been Starseed Children born on this earth, but in this time and age they are a little different as their mission is different and very spacific, God is bringing forth lots and lots of special children in the world in order to help save the world, their is more being birthed every year and they have a very strong calling to change the world, that’s how you know that you are one of these special children, anyone that is about 40-100 years old brought forth these children (gave birth to) and their children and their children’s children are going to be even more powerful, the children will get more powerful with every generation because the Starseed Children will be more aware of their children’s calling and know how to properly train their children to be who they are supposed to be, you will be seeing more and more younger children stepping forward and making changes in the world that we live in, more and more younger men and women getting into politics than ever before, and because we are Starseed Children and recognize other Starseed Children then we will accept these people as here to do what they are supposed to be doing, and that is to change the world, no government or country will be able to stop these Starseed Children for their are too many of them to stop, they could practically have their own country and they just might do that one day as they will grow more and more, good things are coming ahead. You also know that you are a Starseed Child because you have had thoughts of suicide, I advise you not to do so as you are needed here on earth, Starseed Children usually want to commit suicide because they don’t feel like they belong here because they know where their real home is and that is somewhere else and they will eventually feel homesick and want to go back home, so I will not be surprised if the suicide rate goes up more and more every year, they usually feel the pain in the world as they are supposed to so that they can do something about it, they all play their part in this world and if they die then someone else will have to fill those shoes, I advise you not to grow weary in your well doing in this time we are in, you will see a lot of pain and you will be sensitive to it as you are a sensitive, that is your gift and to not run from it but run towards it and just learn to bounce back and comfort your heart, you will also see more and more music that is to encourage you to do what you were put here on earth to do, you will feel the strength from these songs and they will be your cheer leaders, I would encourage you to listen to music when you are feeling weary, music that speaks to you and that you can get your strength from, Starseed Children ban together to help each other out, form groups for there are strength in numbers, do what your parents did not do and raise your children in how you wish that they would have raised you and make this world a better place, thank you to all you Starseed Children for being you, for not giving up and always following your truth xoxo.

BEING GAY IS A CHOICE

Let me explain, this blog is not going to be what you think, I am not against gays, lesbians, or bisexuals, and this is not to bash anyone, in fact my heart goes out to anyone having to live in this reality where liking the same sex is not accepted, hence why I am writing this blog to begin with, I have something that has been on my heart and mind for awhile now and I have to get it off my chest. Whenever I hear people that are gay say “I was born this way and it was not my choice” I hear pain in there voice, sometimes it is such a breakdown of pain that I can feel behind the words is “why me God?”, this world has a way of putting guilt upon a person that even the parents feel guilty as if they did something wrong to deserve a gay son or daughter, I just feel like this cycle has to stop because I don’t feel like it is healthy for anyone. Instead of saying “why me God”, or “I was born this way”, and things like “I did not choose to be gay”, instead say things like “this is my choice and they just have to accept it”, because whenever you say “I did not choose this”…you take away your power, whenever you say “why me God”…you take away your power, but when you say things like “this is the choice I made and this makes me happy”…you take back your power, and when you say to people that “they have a choice weather or not to accept it” then not only are you not giving your power away but you are also giving them the power to choose to accept it, it gives them something to think about, sometimes we just don’t think we have a choice unless given the opportunity to choose. 

  What I feel is that we all are both male and female, I don’t believe that the soul or the spirit has a sex, I believe that love is love and that love is not bound to male, female or human, that you can love anything and anybody, I am not gay or a lesbian but I do feel like I chose not to be gay, I could be with the same sex and love them just the same but I chose to be with the opposite sex, and that makes me feel empowered…that I can choose and that it is a choice, I feel the male side of me and I feel the female side of me, I don’t define myself by my relationships. I have noticed that people that like both sexes are more open and loving people, connected to the world around them and to others, they have so much love to give that it does not matter which sex that they are loving, they are just being who they are which is love, even bisexuals have it bad because the gays or straights don’t like or accept them, even gay people don’t understand how you can like both sexes, people don’t like what they do not understand so I hope that I can shed some light into why and how it can be that someone can love both sexes, because they are not defined by sex, there soul and spirit does not have a sex therefore they are not bound by the rules of this world, they merely go with how they feel and what they were put here on earth to do, they give me inspiration to open my heart up and live through my soul and spirit and not through this flesh and what my brain has been hardwired to believe.

LOVE + ADMIRATION = DEEPER LOVE

I use to wonder why I felt like I loved someone more than another, first I thought someone was my soul mate but when I discovered that I could love someone else with just as much intensity or more, then I realized after doing a lot of inner self discovery that what I was feeling was levels of admiration, I also did a discovery on love itself that had me baffled for a long time, I wondered how people could fall out of love and I had to ask myself…did they ever love that person at all?, on my own discover and journey on the situation…I thought it was time to share what I had learned. Love is not something that is measured it just is, we were made from love, for love, to love, love is what we are so it is very natural for us to love, hate is taught but that’s another subject, anyway back to the subject of love. People were made to connect to each other, that is how were hard wired, so if you feel love at first sight then other than spiritual reasons it could mean that you are connecting to that persons true self or their energy that they are putting off, maybe it is there confidence, sweetness, power or personality etc., something that you are connecting to that you could be admiring. Sometimes we love someone because they have something that we want as far as personality trait, something that we admire in them that if we were to get closer to them then we would think that we could acquire that trait, or if we don’t have it then maybe them is the missing ingredient in our lives that will complete us, we all want to be whole and most of us don’t think that we can be whole on our own, so we need something or someone else, that’s why a relationship where two people have what the other is lacking makes for a good partnership, because the two admire each other they tend to not only stay together longer but get along a lot better and tend to be happier in the process long term, but if one stops admiring the other person then that could be a dangerous ingredient in the mix, and doesn’t taste very good. So the next time you love someone so deeply that your willing to die for them, you might want to ask yourself “what is it that I need from them?” that I cannot give myself, and that is why after a break up we can tend to grow from it, because it brings us deeper into ourselves, love is a powerful thing but love with admiration is even more powerful.

Be The Lion

I want to share a vision that I have pertaining to lion’s and how I feel we as humans should be if we want to survive in this Human Kingdom. If you ever watched a lion strut his stuff, or even if you watched your house cat walk around, you know that they have a presence to the way that they walk, a confidence and a look in their eye that says “I am the lion king”, in my vision I believe we all have that walk, just in some it is hidden or they forgot their strut walk, I encourage you to let your outer strut walk loose…and think Lion the next time you are walking around, even if people are not watching you…never let go of your strut. In my vision I see a lion at the top of a hill or mountain, the other animals are walking by…some lion’s some not, and some want to test the lion, they feel his presence and confidence and most walk on by based on that, but for the some that want to test if they have what it takes to go up against the lion they do so, but the lion always wins. Think of yourself on the top of that hill or mountain, the other people being the other animals and lions, but when you look at them make sure you look at them knowing that you always win, most won’t even go up against you, but for the few that do it will make you stronger and it is your opportunity to shine and to build your confidence even more, for when you are the weak lion or playing victim then others will know that if they pounce on you that they will eat you alive, but at least if you have your strut and your confidence it will lessen the numbers, instead of making others stronger, make yourself stronger, practice your walk, practice your mind set, the only victim is in your mind, but you have a heart of a lion, so I encourage you to use it.

Being Invested In The Outcome

A lot of times we think about the investments were making like with money or maybe even investments into relationships, and we tend to feel very betrayed if someone we love betrays us after all of our investment into them, only trying to protect our investments next time, in order to not get hurt again, or if we lose money then we tend to hold on tighter to what we earned and worked so hard for. Unconsciously we are doing the same thing to everything we do in life, we invest our time in a company just to find they found someone better or for lower pay and that they no longer needed you anymore, we set ourselves up because we have expectations on how we see the end result to be, so normally what happens when things don’t turn out the way we expect them to go then we get let down, and instead of looking at the bright side all we see is how much of a failure we are because we let ourselves down on our expectations, sometimes we don’t look at that door closing as to learn from it so that way something better can come along, how many times have you been upset about something just to find out later on that the same thing you were upset about you ended up being grateful and happy about?, at least once in your lifetime i’m sure  , we can avoid a lot of pain in life and create more open doors and possibilities just by not being invested in the outcome. Now I am not saying not to have goals, dreams and hopes, but just keep in mind that it can or cannot go the way that you expect or want, and that you can be open to other possibilities, because if you are not open then you can sabotage your success, it can cause you to not push through if you are invested in the outcome, you might even see that what you thought was there to kill you that in the end was the very thing that made you stronger resulting in success. Also when you are invested in the outcome then you are not fully present or invested in the present moment, it also can be an energy drainer when your focus is on an outcome, I say that investing in yourself gives you more energy instead of robbing you of your energy, because in the back of your mind you will always be thinking even if on a subconscious level that “what if this does not go the way that I want it to go?”, but if you invest in yourself and doing your best knowing that it is all for your higher good regardless of the outcome gives you more energy to play with, you will always be disappointed in yourself if you are always invested in outcomes which in turn is an energy drainer, because no one wants to go around feeling like a failure all the time, it just is a bad feeling and can freeze a person from moving forward. So ask yourself…am I loving my husband for something in return?, am I doing something for my friends so that way when I need there help that they will be there for me?, am I being nice to my boss so that they will give me that raise? etc., you get the picture…just be aware is all, because maybe in loving my husband I got something that I did not expect, or in doing something for my friend I met someone that changed my life forever, and maybe in being nice to my boss that my boss opened up to me and gave me such good advice that it made me the strong person that I am today, just don’t miss out on the blessings trying to get the prize  .